Helping God Out
I was lying in bed, exhausted from work and thinking God-ward, about how I could do more for others in recovery when I am constantly working different hours, never sure what days I can attend meetings, and write posts that may inspire somebody on this globe to get free of their addiction. “If I could just do these things full-time,” I think prayerfully. My thoughts continue, “there are so many things that need done for You God, I need to do more to promote the book You inspired me to write, I really want to visit the different meetings, AA, NA, Celebrate Recovery…but work doesn’t allow it, what do You want me to do? This is an new, old song I’m singing.
God Needs Me, doesn’t He?
I guess I really am that ego-centric, believing that God+ Keith= world-wide revival, end to alcoholism, drug addiction, and everyone coming to Jesus. No, I really don’t think that way. I just want to play a greater role, doing more for the Kingdom of God, or as much as I can with the time I have left on the Earth. My mind then returns to my early recovery, how I asked God to let me play a bit-part in the Kingdom. I didn’t care if it was cleaning urinals and emptying trash at church…He had different plans, as long as I remain surrendered to His will.
I had forgotten one important thing, it is, one day at a time silly. God’s Spirit within me jolted my memory of the importance of living in today, even in the moment, bringing thoughts, prayers, and focusing my attention on Him. Every good intention I have, is to be second to the personal time with Him. In that quiet place with Abba, ideas stream, my life changes as He re-shapes me into someone He can use for His glory. I can recall lesser known verses of carols regarding that first advent, and how meaningful they become as I surrender peacefully to His will.
Advent in Song
“O Holy Child of Bethlehem, descend on us we pray, cast out our sin and enter in, be born in us today. We hear the Christmas angels, the great glad tidings tell, O come to us, abide with us, Our Lord Emmanuel.”
Hail the newborn Prince of Peace, hail the Son of Righteousness, light and life to all He brings, risen with healing in His wings, mild He lays His glory by, born that men no more should die, born to raise the sons of Earth, born to give them second birth. Hark the herald angels sing, Glory to the newborn King!
Yes Lord we greet Thee, born this happy morning, Jesus to Thee be all glory given; Word of the Father, now in flesh appearing, O come let us adore Him, O come let us adore Him, O come let us adore Him, Christ the Lord!
I see much more clearly that God can grow His kingdom with or without me. He cannot grow His kingdom with a controlling me, but will use a surrendered me. And having a personal advent, allowing Him to come in, remove and fill, whatever needs repaired and re-supplied, allows me to serve, humbly, with gratitude, and I can go off to sleep knowing He has it under control.
Thanks for reading, God bless and keep you all…Merry Christmas!