One of the hardest things I ever did was walked into an AA meeting for the first time. I actually put it off for months, making excuses namely, I don’t need anyone’s help. Yet, everyday I asked God for help to get sober. But that is talking to God, it is okay to ask Him, He’s God and our conversations are private, no one will know.
When I finally arrived in AA, I was shocked to hear people saying what I was going through at that moment. They had the same fear and lived with the same denials I had. I heard someone say, “God led me to AA, AA led me to God.” That was interesting to me. “So,” I thought, “God uses people to help people get sober.” How novel. I thought I knew God better than that.
Certainly He could simply decree I was fixed and free of alcoholism and, ouila! I’m as good as new! Pour me a double! I can start over…and that is what would happen. All of the good things I have learned in AA, NA, and CR, are all exactly what I needed to heal, and to find life without self-serving, and I still am in that classroom.
Help From There
I had many ignorant thoughts about God. After all, I had more than the equivalent of a bachelor’s degree in religious and Biblical studies before my two-decade drunk. I knew the scripture well enough to interpret how God worked throughout the Bible and apply it to you…but not me.
There and here are the same for God. He doesn’t dwell in time or space, both created for people. Jehovah-Shammah, one of God’s power names means “He is There.” Literally, He is here and there, constantly, ever-present. But, even my knowing that truth, what was He doing at AA, talking through these recovering drunks and addicts? “God, You are messing with my religion!” That was His intent, to my benefit, and His glory.
Help From Here
I am grateful and curious simultaneously. Grateful He looked beyond my faults and had pity, leading me to discover how wonderful people in recovery can be, most of them ready to help anyone get free. Curious though, why me? I’ll leave that alone. God will see to our getting help we need for whatever the problem(s) we face throughout life. When the help comes, however, don’t have expectations of who, what, when, where, and how, the help got there.
Just accept it, with a laugh, with joy, that this Amazing God sheds His amazing grace in stunning, even unbelievable ways. You and I are never out of His reach.
Take it to the bank.