I haven’t given much thought of my lack of posting lately. I have had quite a go of bad events that have stifled my desire to do the next right thing.
Even though I feel like so many other bloggers and essayists do, that is, discouraged thinking, “maybe it’s time to give writing up.” If I am not getting enough readers, likes, and followers after 4 years of posting, do something else. My mind is trying to convince me that I really not that good at this. Those thoughts, if I let them may cause another to not read something they need to read to help them in their struggle to get well.
Furthermore, I don’t offer back what I have been given. That is my lifeline in staying clean and sober. Giving is thought to be financial offerings by most people. Giving is using every resource available to me to serve any need for other’s benefit. I say not care who reads these posts, how may likes I get, or followers telling us I’m a swell writer. Giving what I have is what matters most, to God’s glory, to help another alcoholic or addict, or someone needing spiritual help.
I see how easy self-service can resurface when focus is placed on personal trials and not the solution. Poor me could easily end up pour me another. That is a dark place I never want to return to. I want to spend the rest of my days on this planet, doing whatever I can to please God, and help others. I have no laurels to rest on, no achievement to congratulate myself about. What I do have is Grace beyond anything I deserve.
The short of it is this, give yourself away. Give all you can, as often as you can, as long as you can, and watch life change for the better, and joy remains constant. If you are unsure what you can give, ask God to give you an idea, a spark, anything to get out of yourself, especially if you are struggling with sobriety blues. He will answer. Don’t allow silence to stifle what you can give.